I acknowledge complex grief will always be a lifelong visitor. There is a significant shift when I welcome it to come versus fighting that it exists. Making that choice for myself changed everything.
this is my last holiday with them for possibly ever (long story short: A parent threatened to unlive me while driving the suv bc i told them they didn't know what "insinuate" meant after they said "I never said you were retarded" and I said "you insinuated it" and thy went on a tirade about how they have a master's degree in language arts and i told them that they're acting like a five year old throwing a hissy fit about a word that isn't even a swear.... but evey time i feel alone i can remind myself why i did it. for my mental and physcial wellbeing. it works out that I am converting to Judaism soon and my legal name and gender change is next month! also, my parent finally said they are taking me out fo thie will as it is too expensive to change my name in the document... i'm managing to just get through tomorrow and tuesday and then have them out of my life forever. also my documentations say I am emancipated so i really don't care at this point. it just sucks that that all happened over me saying they were insinuating that i was retarded and that they didn't know what it meant. anyway at least i wont have to buy gifts for any of them anymore.
this is my last holiday with them for possibly ever (long story short: A parent threatened to unlive me while driving the suv bc i told them they didn't know what "insinuate" meant after they said "I never said you were retarded" and I said "you insinuated it" and thy went on a tirade about how they have a master's degree in language arts and i told them that they're acting like a five year old throwing a hissy fit about a word that isn't even a swear.... but evey time i feel alone i can remind myself why i did it. for my mental and physcial wellbeing. it works out that I am converting to Judaism soon and my legal name and gender change is next month! also, my parent finally said they are taking me out fo thie will as it is too expensive to change my name in the document... i'm managing to just get through tomorrow and tuesday and then have them out of my life forever. also my documentations say I am emancipated so i really don't care at this point. it just sucks that that all happened over me saying they were insinuating that i was retarded and that they didn't know what it meant. anyway at least i wont have to buy gifts for any of them anymore.
I know so little about how to navigate this site I can’t even find my post and Pamela’s response!